June 8, 2012

Lately

I've kind of been MIA for a while.  Partly just trying to enjoy the nice weather and the other part being busy with all things that aren't so interesting. 

Lately there have been quite a few minor changes, which are for the better, that can make a pretty significant impact for D family.  Things were just not where we as a family wanted them and frankly put the same expression on my face as Noah gets when I give him peaches.  We're still not exactly where I hope to one day be, but we are definitely moving in a positive direction which gives me new hope for the future.  Whenever I'm in need of some change and it seems everything wants to stay put and not budge, I tend to get very discouraged very fast.  I guess that's pretty typical for type A personality who wants what they want right now! 
Anyhow, I'm very happy with these current changes and they put a brand new smile upon my face : )

DESIRED CHANGE #1 - To be a stay at home mom or to have a job I can actually tolerate.  Currently I pretty much despise my job.  Not the, "Oh I don't feel like working today." but the complete dread and hatred for the job.  I know I'm lucky to have a job and I thank God for that everyday.  I'm just wanting something a little more directed at what I would like to do.  Right now it's difficult to leave my family to go to a job I hate.  Even though being a stay at home mom is far from reach, a job I enjoy more would make leaving my family everyday slightly less of an emotional dissatisfaction.
    ACTUAL/CURRENT CHANGE - Well I'm by no means a stay at home mom and I'm still at the job I dislike beyond imagination.  I did, however, bid or apply for a different job within the same company but in a different department.  If I get it I will be in a lower position than I am now, but I don't care about a title.  It still isn't where I see myself in the future but it would be much better than where I'm at currently. 

DESIRED CHANGE #2 - Spend more time with Andy by Andy finding a new job with a matching work schedule as myself.  Andy and I have less than desirable schedules.  I work the typical 8-5 Monday through Friday and he works 1-8:30 Tuesday through Saturday.   Which leaves us only a full Sunday to do anything as a family together.  Sundays usually end up being the day we spend with the rest of my hubby's family and a day where we get things done which haven't been able to get done during the week.  Needless to say, it's not an easy thing to manage when you have completely different schedules than your spouse. 
    ACTUAL/CURRENT CHANGE - Well Andy has yet to find a new job.  He has, however, managed to get an extra day off a week, Saturday, which gives us a whole weekend to spend together.  I can't tell you  how happy that makes me : )

DESIRED CHANGE #3 - Get Noah exposed to new people and other babies his age and give Andy's mom a little break since the rest of the kids are out of school for the summer.  The intent was to get him into a good daycare at least part of the time to be exposed to new people and kids while lessening the amount of time Andy's family had to watch him. 
    ACTUAL/CURRENT CHANGE - We did find a good daycare for Noah and he is now starting to go every Tuesday.  This will give Andy a full morning to get some stuff, such as mowing, done and give Andy's mom a break.  His first day they said he did great and was very sociable!

DESIRED CHANGE #4 - Take more time out as a family and go on vacations.  The last vacation I went on with Andy was our honeymoon.  Usually our vacations are to go visit my family in Ohio.  I love these trips but they tend to be so hectic with visiting everyone that Andy and I get very little relaxing time together.
    ACTUAL/CURRENT CHANGE - We have decided to skip our usual 2nd trip to Ohio and decided to instead take an extended weekend trip to Maine later in the summer.  I can't wait to take Noah to the beach!

There are other things I guess I would like to change but I think everyone has at least some things that they may want different at one point or another.  These were my BIG changes which were very important to me.  I've felt stuck in a rut for a while and now with some progress I'm feeling slightly lighter and happier! : )